it all makes sense, it all feels right
Sunday, Aug. 03, 2003 - 3:46 pm
i was driving down the road today
the clouds were dark
the rain was falling
i stopped the car in the middle of the road
and looked up at the sky
and three golden leaves slowly fell to the ground
and the world seemed okay agian
tomorrow is about to completely change my world forever. but something is making it okay. something in me knows that it's not going to matter. it's going to be okay. i know this is how God wants it to be. i could think about our time together forever, and i would never be bored. it's so beautiful
and i'm sorry for everything. i'm sorry for all the times i've been rude. i'm sorry for the times when i've let myself get in the way. i'm sorry for not understanding. and for not caring more. please know that i love you no matter what.
and i don't have much longer in this town. in my life as i know it. and looking back i have so many memories, they all fly through my head. of laughter, of tears, of fun, of hard work, of complete chaos, of everything. and i love it. i love every single second of it.
i feel like i'm letting go. like it's all leaving me. i feel like i'm slowing drifting into something beyond explaining. something bigger than anything else. and i know that it's going to catch me, and i'm going to be happy there. and just thinking about that, makes me the most content person in this world.
