The Passion of Christ
Wednesday, Mar. 03, 2004 - 10:11 am
yesterday was so great! i had fun at school... well i guess, no, i don't really know what i'm talking about, nothing that made yesterday great had anything to do with school. haha. it was all after school!
we canceled the retreat and instead we're putting it all in FCA form. it really makes me happy, and i feel like this huge weight has been lifted off of me, it's a huge relief. it was stressing me out so much but now i feel so much better about things. it was still a great learning experience. and when compared to life i think it really makes sense. things don't always work out the way you hoped they would or you planned them too, but things always turn out okay. and you know, this is God's plan, not mine. so this is for the better. and i'm so excited!
then the whole fca crowd went to see the passion of christ. GREAT movie. it was so powerful. it's one of those movies you can't think about and like wonder whether you should go or not, you just have to go, and it's sooooo worth it. there's parts where you hate it and where you just want it to be over but it's sooooo life altering, it really really is. it blew me away. and yes, i balled but it didn't matter, and i don't know. i think it was just a really good experience all together. it makes everything so much more concrete and it just makes you have a whole new look on everything. i would recommend it to anyone, everyone should see it. some of my favorite parts that really touched me were when (if you haven't seen it then don't read the rest of this paragraph) Jesus was falling carrying the cross and Mary was running after Him and then it flashbacked to when He was little and had fallen and she was running after Him. it just seemed to be so heartbreaking yet so comforting. i don't know, it really touched me. and then the whole beating scene... was horrific and it made me want to just scream stop! you've done enough! and then i don't know everything in between and when he was actually crusified. hmm... Christ died for every person on earth so that we could live with our Father God. if that doesn't show love, i don't know what does. it makes me thankful for everything in this life and it makes me realize how much God loves me and how much i owe to Him. if God can send his only Son to die for me, the least i can do is live my life all out for Him. and i love that.
and i woke up this morning... happy. joyful. i love it.
and so i could talk about... something else but none of it really matters in the whole scheme of things. life it good.
