my God is an AWESOME GOD
Wednesday, Mar. 31, 2004 - 12:29 am
it's 12:30, i'm pulliny my second stay up til at least 2 nights this week. and i have a feeling the rest of the week will be the same. this whole month of march i keep thinking if i can just make it to the next week, everything will get a lot less stressful... right, this week has been the most stressful of all. and you WOULD be thinking i would be freaking out, wouldn't you? well let me tell you something... something's happened to me, and i'm on top of the world. i can't remember the last time i have been this happy and this on fire for God.
i've been on a lot of retreats lately, and they've all touched me in a lot of different ways. but... this last one, the FCA convention in Garden City this past weekend. it touched me in a different way, and in a huge way, and in a way i never in my life saw coming. and i'm completely blown away.
i gained so much out of that trip, and i don't even know how to put it into words. i realized that it doesn't matter how people come to lead a Christian life, that however that happened for them, that was God's plan, and as long as they are on fire for Christ, that's all that matters. i realized that when you put all of your energy, your thoughts, your worth, everything with in you, when you put that into everything you do, for the glory of God. nothing in or out of this world can stop you. and that is an amazing blessing. it's awesome. and more than ever i want to live a complete life for Christ. He paid the ultimate sacrafice, and i can't ask for anything better. the entire trip i saw God in everything around me, the beauty of the beach, the night time, the sky, the people around me, everything. and i love it. it's a total blessing that i wasn't looking there, not there, b/c that was completely out of my element, but what i got out of it. was incredibly amazing.
and i met this girl, Brie. and i don't know how to describe her. but i've known her less than a week, and i can promise you that she has made more of an impact on me in that little of a time than anyone has ever made on me in my ENTIRE life. and that's pure God. nothing could have done that without the ulmighty God. for so long now i've just been praying for God to show me the way, show me His will for me, and to help me not feel so lost. and when i'm with Brie, it's like i can see God in everything she does- her actions, the things she says... everything. and it's just like bam, here is the answers to your prayers, this is how you are supposed to live your life. and there's so much more i could say about her and about what she's done for me in 5 days time, but i don't even know where to begin, b/c i'm completely speechless. that's how powerful this is, and let me tell you something, i'm so thankful for it, and so loving it.
and i get to see lane in 3 days, i'm so excited!
i'm so in awe of everything around me. i feel like i can't get enough, all i want to do is talk to and about God. it's awesome.
i think my info from tonight pretty much describes it:
i haven't been this happy, this on top of the world, this on fire for my life... in a looong loooong time! :-)
put everything you have - all your thoughts, energy, and worth - into everything you do so that it is for the glory of God. it will change your life in amazing ways!
it's an incredibly amazing blessing, how God can put someone into your life, and with in no time at all, you are forever changed...
thank you God, for the many blessings you have poured on me. especially for the realizations you have helped me come to in these last few days. thank you for answering my prayers and being my rock, my salvation, all i ever needed. i love you!
