my big long ramble about the awesome power of love
Friday, Apr. 16, 2004 - 11:50 pm
i'm in one of my... thought provoking sappy moods- so get ready. haha, but i'm thinkin a lot about love and God, so it won't be bad! i promise!
i realized tonight, well no, i've realized this a lot before tonight, but it was one of those moments where i was reminded how beautiful the gift of love is. i mean, really, if you think about it. the fact that you can actually care for the people around you so much and it pains you when they hurt, that you laugh when they laugh, that at their call you would be there and you know it's the same the other way around. think about it, the fact that there are people around you that you just absolutly click with and that since the moment you met them you have loved them and everything about them. think about it, despite your faults - you have people that love you. and i think that's SO huge. so incredibly huge and amazing and absolutly wonderful. and at the same time, so simple. huge and confusing because it's that big. love is that big. there are no ends to love. you know how there are people that you love so much and you start thinking about it and you're like you know, i love this person so much, i don't know how i have anymore love for anything else. and more people and things just keep comin at you, and it's so easy to just love it back. and huge because it didn't have to be this way. huge because the only reason we can feel this love is because God LOVES us! this huge amount of love that a person can feel, is so tiny to the amount that God loves us. we can't even understand the amount that God loves us, much less try to understand how we can love another human being. and simple because, duh it's like this, b/c it's God. and why would God have it any other way. and simple because, without love, what would any of us be. we would be nothing. i know i'm rambling a lot but it truly does just awstricken me. i feel like right now, i could go outside and look up at the heavens and think about love and it's capacity and it's beauty and it's awe, and i could do it forever. i could just stand there, with my arms stretched wide, and i would feel it. forever. it just blows me away, that everything God puts in my life, even down to the simplest, minut thing, every single thing in my life i know it's from God and i know it's because God loves me. and i look at that and i just want to be in love forever. i just want that burning feeling for ever. and that's so huge, and on a smaller level, on the human level, which in my mind i can't even fathom b/c it's so huge, but compared to God's love doesn't even compare. the fact that there are people in my life, whom i know that God has placed there for a specific reason, there are people in my life, that all i have to do is have their name pop into my head and it brings the greatest joy to me. it blows me away that there are people that i can be around and just never want to leave that moment, no matter how... insignificant it is, like just standing somewhere waiting to leave, anything. how it doesn't matter, you just don't want to leave. b/c you're with that person. and you love that person. and what you share with that person is so incredible and raw and just completely awesome. that you love that person and you can't even explain it, it's just there. that you can love someone, even just weird little stuff about them, to be able to share that with someone. tears, and laughs, and hugs, and moments. it all. and to love someone and just know that despite all. the world could blow up, and you could not exsist. but in your soul, it's always gonna be there. it's something that's always going to stay. that despite even if you become distant and things happen to hurt your relationship that deep down you know that no matter what, you're always gonna have that love. once you love someone, you can't go back, despite anything, you just can't. and geez i'm really talking a lot about this, but that's how crazy it is to me. i just... i can't ever say all i want to about it. and i know part of that is because i don't even understand it. but i just feel like i could go on forever. it just, it rocks my world that that preciousness of love, that burning, that it's always there and always holding on. it just blows me away.
and i really had a lot to say in this entry but once i got started on that i completely forget everything else i was going to talk about. that's good enough right there. love you guys. love someone. love anyone. love everyone. because you don't know what it can do. it's simple. it's easy. and it's the best thing that you could ever do for yourself. just love people. love the people that get on your nerves, love the people that no one else pays attention too, love the people that God has used to touch you, love the people whom you may feel don't deserved to be loved- love them because God loves them and that's a good enough reason. love your family, love your friends. love the people you meet, from the moment you meet them. and it will show through. it will. they will feel it. if you've got love in your heart for Jesus Christ, you're going to have love for people. but don't stop it. just let it burn, and let it spread. it's amazing.
my info from tonight, just to, you know back it all up! ---> love someone. it's easy, it's simple, and it's the best thing you could ever do for yourself
look at the things around you: the stars in the sky, the early morning dew on the ground, the personalities around you, colors, feelings, and your endless amount of other blessings, and know, that it's from God. simply- because He loves you
graduation is coming up guys, lets make these last few moments count! i love you all so much and i don't know what i would do without you!
it's an incredibly amazing blessing, how God can put someone into your life, and with in no time at all, you are forever changed...
thank you God, for the many blessings you have poured on me. especially for what you have helped me come to know in this last month. thank you for answering my prayers and being my rock, my salvation, all i ever needed. i love you!
peace out guys, love you all so very much! don't forget to say your prayers!
